Good evening everyone,
Some things have happened in the last couple of days that bring to mind "forgiveness." It doesn't seem like much of a word, does it? It is eleven letters long, and it means a great deal to each of us whether we are doing the forgiving or receiving the forgiving. It is the very first step in healing old wounds. There are times when we might find it difficult to forgive someone for a hurt. Intentional or unintentional we hurt each other. Sometimes physically, but I believe more often mentally or emotionally. I do not speak from experience, but to me it would seem that the physical hurts are easier to get over both physically and emotionally. But when we have been betrayed or lied to or made to feel like we are less, those are the hurts that we find harder to forgive someone for.
I keep listening to one of my favorite people, Louise Hay, and she says that even if we can't forgive, we could be WILLING to forgive. By being willing to forgive, we open up an opportunity for the Universe or God to help us find a way. Isn't that a wonderful way to look at it? I'm not perfect, but for me forgiveness has pretty much been easy, except when it comes to certain family members. I don't know, but it seems with some I have to work really hard to forgive. I have forgiven much over the years, and I have come to realize that some hurts go very deep, so forgiveness for me comes in layers. I forgive and let it go, then down the road somewhere the old hurt raises its nasty head. I say to myself "but you have forgiven that person for this action." Then I realize that the wound is deeper than I thought, so I have to forgive again, and another layer of the hurt is removed. Sometimes I cry again over it all, and I think again what a friend told me about hurts and crying and pain. The wound is where the light enters to heal. So, I let myself cry, and on occasion it is a really broken cry. It sounds like a wounded animal, and I guess the analogy is appropriate, because I am wounded, and when the crying jag is spent, I sleep and wake refreshed.
I have even had to forgive myself for not being able to forgive. I have been working on allowing myself this for years now. I think that this is even harder than forgiving someone else. We tend to forget that we too need forgiveness, and we have to be willing to forgive ourselves as well. We ourselves are worthy of our own forgiveness just as others are. Love, Light, Peace, and Joy!
I'm just an ordinary person on my path to enlightenment. I enjoy learning, and lately I'm learning how to enjoy the challenges that present themselves as opportunities for me to grow. I hope that you find encouragement and inspiration through this blog.