Good Evening, a couple of days late. I do apologize for not getting this done on Wednesday. No real excuses, but I was involved at church that evening, and I have been wondering what God would guide me to write about this week. It truly didn't hit me until today.
Being raised a Catholic and attending Catholic school, at least through 8th grade, Lent was always about what we enjoyed that we would give up for 40 days. I used to give up spinach. Not that I enjoyed it, but that it was something I didn't like but had to eat anyway. Typical child logic. So, if I gave it up, that would excuse me from eating it whenever my mother fixed it. Anyway, as we go through our daily routine or routines, there are times when we encounter animosity from others. Sometimes just when we think that things are getting better someone comes along and stirs up the pot and then things are not going so smoothly. Sometimes we become the brunt of another's anger about having no say in how things are done. Suffice it to say, that some people are good with change and others find change almost unbearable. I am the former. Change has truly never bothered me, although as I get older I will admit that while I'm okay with it, making the change takes a little longer than it used to take. Anyway, there's always a time when we get blindsided.
This was part of my week. I'm the new person at work, and I have a very strong personality. Some would say I'm pushy. In any event, my job description is not clearly defined, and often there is not enough work to keep me busy. So, the boss or bosses will sometimes ask me to do things that others are already doing. I don't mind so much, but I guess if I were in my coworkers' place, I would feel the same. My coworkers tend to be a little possessive or protective of the work they do. I might do the same thing. I would like to think that I wouldn't take it out on the person being given direction. But I just might. I think it is easier to take out our hurts on a peer than to let the boss know of our dissatisfaction.
So, with that little bit of information you might be able to see where I'm going with this. I know it is not my coworkers fault, it actually isn't anyone's fault, it is a lack of communication from the top down. When I left work yesterday, I felt pretty upset. I felt pretty upset all day today. I have asked for God and his angels to help me handle this with love and kindness. I'm still upset, so I haven't addressed it yet. But, what I did try to do today was to be kind. For the most part little to no conversation occurred between me and my coworkers. And I did my work, what there was to do, and I kept my mouth shut. I didn't feel welcome at the office today at all. I felt like a pariah. By the end of the day, I was exhausted, drained of energy just from deflecting such hostilities. On my way out, I said, "have a good weekend," and the only person in the area as I left didn't acknowledge my address at all.
So, I would say that I have some work to do. I will be kind, I know to be kind. I also know that I cannot be a doormat either. So, as I close, for Lent this year, I'm going to practice being kind. Maybe I'll even add some of my "voice" to that as well. I must find my voice. I hope you will think about what you can GIVE this Lenten season. Love, Light, Peace, and Joy!
I'm just an ordinary person on my path to enlightenment. I enjoy learning, and lately I'm learning how to enjoy the challenges that present themselves as opportunities for me to grow. I hope that you find encouragement and inspiration through this blog.